Sad..

Nothing more to say really. I worked hard , I pushed and barely slept for weeks on end. So close, but no cigar. I never saw it coming. I knew, KNEW....I would make it. I guess past tense is the key.

Ok, I wanted to tell you all of it, but I'm going to cry again, and I cant do it. I'm out of energy. I haven't cried like this in years. Not since...

With all thats happened - pyelonephritis shit aside, money issues, the family...who don't want me this summer either. Shock, horror, eh, people. "It's not that we don't want you to come home...it's just not the time" Oh, so what, all concern for my health gone? Dont' even want to see me? "Take this time in Sweden as a opportunity to learn and see things, S"

Fine.

They say friends are the family that you choose. Funnily enough, Miss 6 was kind enoough to take this lost vagabond in. Thanks for believing in me you all, but it did not quite work out as planned. Doesn't mean I'm giving up. It's not how you fall..it's how you get up.

Hope all is well with you...God Bless. I love you all. Miss 6, Miss Lucifer - see u soon. =) TheZaf....thanks for yesterday. We tried to ring u back, much later...sorry about the delay. We will try again today. Is there a good time?

It's a climb

The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa